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Ripples of Change and Grief

Ripples of Change and Grief

Oh, don’t we like to hold onto our illusion of control? And to help us feel in control we tidy up, organise, put stuff into neat little boxes. We simplify and generalise so we can ‘get our heads round it’, whatever ‘it’ may be, and to try to stop feeling overwhelmed...

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Enough!

Enough!

It’s my word for 2020. I decided that back in January even before our world got turned on it’s head. I realised it was time to stop seeking. It’s time for me to accept that I have ENOUGH. I have enough books, and course materials. I have enough knowledge and...

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Train to Nowhere

Train to Nowhere

Life has felt full and fast these last two weeks, and I’ve missed the spaces in between. Without the spaces, I lose the sense of who I am and what I want; I become reactive, not centred and intentional. It’s not been bad or difficult stuff I’ve been dealing with -...

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The Ground Beneath my Feet

The Ground Beneath my Feet

When all seems madness, and the pace is too fast; the noise in my head too loud and too shrill; the tight flutter in my chest caught from anxiety in the air - it's time to breathe, deep and slow... Feel the air in my nose, the life in my veins. Feel the strength in my...

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Meet my Friend Procrastination

Meet my Friend Procrastination

We've a difficult relationship, Procrastination and I.  Mostly that's because the general consensus seems to be that Procrastination is no good and a bad influence. A kind of lazy ne'er do well who hangs around the bike sheds smoking. The kind of influence my mother...

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Too many Apps running in my head

Too many Apps running in my head

I got caught out by my phone running out of charge. "Pah" I thought grumpily, "Bloody phone, battery life is getting really short!" But later, when I managed to get it connected to some juice, I realised just how many different apps I had open and running. That runs...

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Can the Fantasy be Reality?

Can the Fantasy be Reality?

I have this fantasy. The fantasy is of the 'ideal' me. I see her in my mind so clearly: This is the Rachel who wakes early each morning with a smile and a stretch, drinks lemon water, then effortlessly performs 20 minute of Yoga. This Rachel meditates; she takes brisk...

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The Joy of Full Immersion

The Joy of Full Immersion

Something happened in the night; my subconscious has made a decision and declared "enough's enough"! I've woken today with a craving that's quietly intense. It's taken hold deep within and is sitting with quiet insistence. And I surrender, hoping and trusting the...

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Choosing a gentler way

Choosing a gentler way

"Gentle" seems to be my chosen word just now, a little mantra to anchor me back to what's true. Maybe it's the mellowness of Autumn; maybe it's because I feel a little fragile as I transition to my 50's and adjust to my eldest leaving home. Perhaps it's because my...

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Woken by the Wave

Woken by the Wave

I was awoken by the wave, which dredged me up from the depths of my dreams and cast me gasping and thrashing on the shore of consciousness. Like a fever, the heat pulsed through my body as I threw off the covers, pleading with the remnants of sleep. Despite the...

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People behave the way they do for a reason

People behave the way they do for a reason

She was furious. He'd let her down again and made her look a fool. He'd not even had the decency to drop her a text or email to let her know. So she dashed off an email, telling him in no uncertain terms what she thought of him. That'll show him. He felt overwhelmed -...

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Whatever the Weather

Whatever the Weather

Ahh, there was a change in the weather today, both outside and inside. I'm sensing the season shift to Autumn, which I warmly welcome. I relish the cosiness of the darkening evenings, the comforting colours and earthy scents. Autumn is a wonderful time to gently let...

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